61. BUILD DON'T BURN, GUIDE DON'T CHIDE (Jesus's words)

     Jesus is almost as clever as I am isn't he?  Just kidding Jesus.  I'm pretty sure both Jesus and God have a good sense of humor.  I hope so anyway, maybe I'm pushing it a bit.  I just had a second counseling session with Chris, my ex. and the model for the Sad Lady, where it dawned on me that not only does she speak and interpret tongues, she also has prophecy that ties right in with the other gifts.  it seems the more messed up we are, the stronger the connection we're liable to make with God.
      I was scribbling again as she prayed but got most of it.  Here's how it went.  She started off praying in english, "You have eyes to see, ears to hear, blessed in knowledge, you have a spirit of confusion, bless me with clarity, clear to me, eyes to see."
     Then I had her switch to tongues and here's what she got:
     She saw a U haul truck, rivers and flowing water, moving and seeking, showing me, green soil, firmly planted, plant seeds, keep moving and grooving and doing, - my writing is a bit hard to read - lead him and guide him, see and feel, know.
     "Your wood is good" she told me and I had some confusion here, "wood or word," I asked, "wood" she said, "you're a builder", I'm a sweet aroma unto the LORD, I'm to be building and not burning, my wood is for building.  The fire from heaven is God's glory, we're not to burn with it, build with it, I should be guiding and not chiding."
     Then she had a vision, sometimes these make sense after some time passes.  She saw a walking stick or staff. "Guiding not chiding" again, water, seeing water, god's water, His water is pure.
     OK, so maybe I got carried away with the posting on the Baptist church, or maybe Jesus did lead me to that to give a wake up call.  I've just offered to help teach their teachers, I'm not after glory, would probably come unglued in front of a congregation.
     That was almost it, then I said, "Wait a minute, the main thing I wanted to know, is God going to bring me a wife or do I go looking.  I don't want to look if He's doing it but if He's not then I'll look."
She went into tongues again for a bit, saw a post and said, "post."  "What I asked, "You see a craigslist post?" "No I see a fence post. but it means you're supposed to post."  OK, that's all I wanted to know.
     She said I should be willing to drive half way to Atlanta, but I believe that was her idea, not Jesus's.  She fumbled with a city starting with "H" a bit, asked if there was a city between Atlanta and me that starts with an "H," then came up with Hiawassee.  I said that's not halfway to Atlanta, I know where that is but it isn't on the way.  She doesn't know the area, but was sure about Hiawasee.  OK, if I meet a woman from craigslist or the dating site, who's from Hiawasee, I'll be very interested.  Jesus gave me Hiawasee.  maybe that's where my wife comes from.  I feel so much better.  All the God stuff is very real my friends, I have multiple sources of it.

Edit from 6-17-15, noon  I'll put this in the previous blog as well.  That information about Hiawassee is the most specific I've ever seen Jesus give about the future.  Normally it's figurative like "Dig and dig for the treasure, sitting on your big machine."  I think I made the intellectual breakthrough with the fact that we humans are puny angels or spirits of God trapped in our energy fields we know as bodies.  I believe I get the woman now.

MESSAGE TO MY FUTURE WIFE  My imagination is prone to running away with me.  At the moment the best looking possibility for me is a petite, attractive woman from the site, I've previously attempted to email with no reply.  She's a bit older than I, and as I, starting a new life in a different place and has a past she wants to put behind her.  If you recognize yourself, you're the reason for all this work, my reward.  You are to be my treasure, the driving force for me to make this breakthrough.  You have to contact me now and hopefully, you'll have a slightly peculiar question, but the question isn't essential.  I believe in the above message from Jesus by way of a servant with gifts that my future wife is to come from Hiawassee.  She may not be the above described woman.  The question I expect Jesus to give her by word of knowledge answers another question and will show us both that we are God's choices for each other.

     It's still a bit puzzling to me why He doesn't turn my gifts back, but as I reasoned before, if I'm supposed to get to God the Father somehow, maybe if He gave me word of knowledge and the regular gift of prophecy, I'd stop digging, thinking I was there. That's reassuring because I'll just about have to have a wife to make it to Him as explained previously.
     The idea that He's bringing me a ready made wife was a creation of my imagination and hopeful thinking though, but he might still lend a hand.  There was that, HE'S ASKING FOR A HARLOT business, maybe just to help teach me things, maybe I still get the question but have to meet Him half way.  Time will tell, just a little more I think.  I believe the breakthrough, or part of it, I was sent for is figuring out the fact that we are weak angels trapped in a cage of energy that feels like mass to us, our bodies.  God is spirit, we are made in His image.  We are spirit.
     I suspect God has chosen to manifest Himself as what we will see as a large man.  I've heard that description from a near death experience.  "In his image" may mean in His physical image since we look like what we always see of angels.  Time will tell on that also.


In his service, a Misfit Child of God