33. PRAYER OF ?

     I'll edit that title if and when God gives me my wife.  She's to come to me with a question that in itself will also be an answer to a big question I have.  Her having the question will show me that she is God's choice for me.  I'm not asking for God's help to make the right choice on my own, I'm asking Him to pick her without my help and make it clear to me this is His choice for my last partner, lover and soul mate.  So far, interesting possibilities are building up.  I don't know if she'll come to me sight unseen and if she doesn't come at all, I'll assume I've been delusional and may stop this blog, but the message from my realtor in, HE'S ASKING FOR A HARLOT gives me encouragement.
     I nearly bumped into a friend of a friend on 2 consecutive trips to the local grocery store twice recently,  and it seemed like maybe God was asking me, "Do you like this one?"  We didn't speak, I recognized her but had to think back as to how I knew her, we'd been briefly introduced at a local social function.  She didn't seem to recognize me.  I told Him she'd do just fine, plenty beautiful but not showy, recently widowed, around my age and I had a comfortable feeling about her.  The one who I liked at church  took my breath away and made me weak kneed but she reminded me a lot of my second wife, the prophet had named Jezebel and I don't want another one of those, a woman who thrives on teasing men with her beauty.  There was a gorgeous one from the dating site who said she was "suitcase ready" but for being as devout as she claimed, seemed a bit too concerned about a man's appearance. Yesterday at the hardware store there was a cute little vendor who seemed to like me.  She took a good bit of time away from her job, on her own time, to help me find some specialty hardware.  I hope I didn't make God mad by giving Him a hand in my search and handing her my card, telling her I'd be happy to buy her a cup of coffee in exchange for all her help.
     I've learned the hard way I'm as likely to knock down a brick wall with my head as I am to change a woman so I better like her as she is.  If she has a habit or spirit named Exhibitionism, that's not going away and I don't want that in a woman.  A couple more items from my list that I can appropriately list but haven't previously, faithfulness, God knows this but I'll write it down just in case, that should go without saying.  Also and God knows this too, no dependent children of any age. For once I'd like to come first after God.  I'm told we should be specific in our prayers and that, "He's asking for a harlot" business rattled me a bit, encouraged me too though, God just might come through for me.  
     The "hedge of thorns" from my last companion should be down.  She's a God connected woman with 2 or 3 gifts, tongues and interpretation of tongues and an experience with the gift of healing. She's still married to her estranged husband, has had an informal ceremony with her new man and had me mentally reserved for herself for future use so had no right to have God put up the hedge in the first place.  It's been prayed down and I had her release me.  After reading my description of her in a couple postings, she should be unhappy with me so I hope has truly let me go.
    I've just seen for myself how very true is the trite saying, "God works in mysterious ways."  I learned that what's in our thoughts can become our prayers to God.  I'll say it again just to be sure God's real clear on this, I'm not asking for a harlot, just felt I was deserving of a woman with similar experience to my own.  My last companion wouldn't have asked God to put up the hedge but had been thinking of me as her mate and future husband, so I believe by those thoughts had God build the hedge of thorns around me.  I'm hopeful of getting my first date in four months soon but have told God to go ahead and block me as long as "His timing" for giving me a woman is very short.
     On to the topic, I woke up last night with a dream that seemed important so I hopped up out of bed and wrote it down, having recently lost something by not getting it down quickly.  As I've said before, God can communicate to us any way He wants and we should always test the communication, it could be from satan, our imaginations or from God.  I spent a good bit of time in prayer last night begging Him to give me something more to show me this isn't all in my imagination, there was the word from my agent but I need reinforcement to keep my faith rising.
     I dreamed I was in some battle and was sending some effective prayer out to someone in need though didn't know the details.  That wouldn't have been from satan, which leaves my imagination or God.  Incidentally as time goes by, it's looking more and more to me like the message I unknowingly typed, "The next pope will be the anti christ," was from Jesus.
     This is addressed to you the reader, whoever, wherever you may be and is short and simple.  I PRAY THAT GOD WILL BREAK THROUGH THE BLOCKAGES IN YOUR LIFE AND GIVE YOU THE HELP AND HEALING YOU MAY NEED, IN JESUS'S NAME, AMEN.  It was 2 part, the second for me, I PRAY THAT GOD WILL BREAK THROUGH WHATEVER BLOCKAGES MAY REMAIN IN MY LIFE IN MY SEARCH FOR THE OTHER TREASURE I'M AFTER.  By now, you know what that is.  I may have just loaded a lot of God's power in cyberspace, some of it for you, then again I may be delusional and going insane.  Time will tell.

In His service, a Misfit Child of God.