46. GOD IS DIRECTING THIS BLOG

     I've just raised some questions about God that most will find blasphemous.  I've asked my God contact to stay carefully tuned in for any feedback from Jesus.  In the future I won't be able to share messages with you but will edit if He directs and let you know of any errors I learn of.
     I wish I were getting feedback from Jesus on each posting but that isn't happening.  I did get the message that some humor is ok, I can have some fun with it and lighten things up but don't get too carried away, this is serious business.  All communications we normally will have will be from Jesus not God the Father.
     My real estate agent who is my God contact and I will be starting some Bible study together.  This way if Jesus wants to give me a point he wants to get out or get to me, he can.  Sometimes she gives me messages from him while we're in long conversations.
     Much of what I do just seems right or God puts it in front of me.  Never on my own would I have thought to do a posting on masturbation.  This morning I was going to start on the angel posting but that seems like a "fluff" piece.  I put up 3 postings today, as I was writing the personal correspondence, it hit me that there were important messages in there and I felt led to turn that into a posting.  It was also a personal correspondence with slight modification, same as the email to the pastor, I didn't change anything on that but hid names.  I am in a bit of a scary place at the moment with some of the questions I've asked but it was Jesus who sent me deep into the Bible and I'm sure God was part of it.        
     Even my God contact was mortified about my questioning whether God had any limits.  I told her I'd listen to her opinion but we might have to agree to disagree and asked her to listen carefully for feedback from Jesus.
     Yesterday and as mentioned back in osting #42, the group leader I had the debate about "Once saved, always saved," and "God had to have created demons because He's sovereign," has a mainstream seminary background and holds a leadership position at a large church.
     I on the other hand have zero seminary training and no affiliation with or compensation from any organization.  My calling was not from a personal thought, inclination or leading I felt within myself, but I have been called directly by God through of a few of his servants with the gift of prophecy and my compensation will come from Him.  I'm not good at public speaking and have never sought out any position of leadership or management.
     I've recently been angry at God for ruining my personal plans and was telling Him I didn't ask for this job.  On reflection however I recall making something of a deal with Him.  A few years ago at a low point in life, I was ruining my marriage to a gorgeous woman with occasional episodes of anti social behavior I couldn't seem to control.  I recall sobbing face down on the floor begging God to let me die if He couldn't fix me.  I offered to serve Him any way He might wish to use me in exchange for His making me whole.  He appears to have taken me up on my offer.
     It seems that from a traumatic childhood with an abusive father and subsequent years of intense hatred towards him, I'd let in so many demons they had formed strongholds.  Strongholds are large collection of demons that will start controlling behavior.  Most Americans watch too much tv and get a lot of misinformation.  You won't notice 1 demon, to get to the point as shown in the movie The Exorcist would require thousands of them.  I don't know how many it takes to form a stronghold, they vary in size, strength and appearance I've learned.
     I'm sorry God for the bad attitude I've had and I'm honored with this job you've given me.  I'm feeling special to you. Thank you and thank you for the beautiful wife you'll soon be sending me.  I just figured out that you'll probably be flipping the switch on me when she comes and I'm wondering if I pass out or what will happen to me.
     I recently attended a small group on invisible warfare and afterwards I was chatting with the leader, a man in a position of leadership with a large local church.  I disagreed with him on a couple topics and will be writing about them.  I feel the idea "once saved, always saved," is a lie from satan and I also disagreed with his position that "God must have created demons since He's sovereign."  He also had the mistaken notion that demons are fallen angels.  I'll do a couple postings on these topics as I suspect I saw a glance of some misconceptions I suspect are held by many.  There'll be repetition from previous postings but I think some of these points should be emphasized and I doubt many are reading all the way through.  I've about got a book going here now.
    God is leading me to information He wants me to find and seems to also be directing my topics. For instance, regarding the 2 verses I used in LEVELS OF HELL, I was searching for the phrase, "In death there is no knowledge" when I found HEBREWS 11: 26, to repeat as I think this is important, "If we deliberately keep on sinning after we have received the knowledge of the truth, no sacrifice for sin is left, but only a fearful expectation of judgment and of raging fire that will consume the enemies of God."  This verse doesn't specifically state the sinner ever got saved but he had knowledge of the truth so I can't argue this against "Once saved, always saved" but I think it supports the other scripture I provided back in that posting, ONCE SAVED ALWAYS SAVED?.  I think the individuals and all Baptist pastors who preach this lie from satan will be held accountable and better start studying their Bibles.  I do believe they are leading many astray and may be in danger of eternal hell fire.  JAMES 3:1  Not many of you should be teachers, my fellow believers, because you know that we who teach WILL BE JUDGED MORE STRICTLY.

In His service, a Misfit Child of God