The solution for healing from abusive behavior is easier stated than done. Somehow we have to forgive the abuser and accept Jesus' love. The worse the abuse, the harder this becomes and many people go through life without healing. What was done to them was so horrible they can't bring themselves to forgive.
Childhood sexual abuse is one of the hardest traumas to overcome. I've known a lady who was sexually abused for a year by a stepfather beginning at the age of 5. He would ejaculate while laying on top of her, force the little girl to put his penis in her mouth and he digitally penetrated her. He threatened to pour boiling oil on her or kill her and her mother if she told on him so she kept his dirty secrets.
Childhood sexual abuse is one of the hardest traumas to overcome. I've known a lady who was sexually abused for a year by a stepfather beginning at the age of 5. He would ejaculate while laying on top of her, force the little girl to put his penis in her mouth and he digitally penetrated her. He threatened to pour boiling oil on her or kill her and her mother if she told on him so she kept his dirty secrets.
There was an incident with the pedophile grandfather in the bathtub and a teenaged babysitter. Why were all these men putting their fingers up her?
Perhaps for the child’s well being, the mom sent the girl away to live with an aunt at the age of 6. This traumatized little girl remembers waving good bye to her mother for a year separation from a bus window. Her mother wasn’t taking very good care of her, but she was her life. She now suffers from the sexual abuse as well as the abandonment issues and tries to compensate by smothering her own little girl with too much care.
After the time with the aunt, this little girl's father felt something wrong was going on and took the child to live with him and his new wife. From here on, she had a happy childhood, but has been haunted for life by the abuse and abandonment. Her mother had done what was best for the girl but she is still scarred from the feeling of being abandoned.
Now middle aged, she also suffers from depression and violent mood swings. She wakes most nights around the time the abuse would happen and has to have a stiff drink or two to get back to sleep. For her the world's a scary place. She feels that many are out to do her harm, take advantage of her or use her some way. She'll misunderstand or obsess about innocent remarks people make and imagine them to be an insult or attack of some kind. She spends a lot of time in anger at the way she feels the world mistreats her. Sometimes she'll go into rages about mistreatment, irrational jealousy or unmet expectations. Much of the time she can't hear reason.
She's often tired and would like not to get out of bed. There are hours at a time she spends crying, worrying about being loved as she ages. Much of the time though her behavior is unlovable.
I've spent many days in that place where my behavior was illogical, irrational, sometimes reprehensible. Alcohol wasn't always involved though was always there at my worst moments.
There were times when I had an intellectual awareness that I wasn't acting sanely but I couldn't make the circular obsessive thoughts stop, or change my behavior. I believe much of this type of behavior is under demonic or spiritual control and, with the help of Dr. Keyton's book, can name the specific spirits which cause these manifestations.
It just occurred to me on this edit that a new approach to healing might be developed with this information. The secular world would have no use for it but perhaps those with spiritual gifts might...Oh yeah, that's what Dr. Keyton's book is all about, the book, Stripes, Nails, Thorns and the Blood" is subtitled, "A manual for Spiritual Warfare, Healing and Deliverance."
The secular world doesn't have much success with drugs. Why isn't more spiritual healing being attempted? As I describe elsewhere, my high dollar shrink was ready to up my already high dosage of Lexapro, which I later learned was causing me mania. After 5 minutes on the internet I read that drugs are rarely successful for treating obsessive disorder. I think the Sad Lady is losing mental clarity from years of flouride based anti depressants, but I didn't know her before she'd already been on them for several years.
The Healing House folks use this approach but I couldn't find a chapter near me. Spiritually gifted people are out there but many hide their gifts because of the world's skepticism. I'd gone to church for years with my mountain mentor without knowing of his gift of tongues. It wasn't until getting to know him well in a home study that I saw his abilities.
Drugs didn't work for the obsessive behavior I had, just created another problem. My former companion has been on anti depressants for years and they may help, but they'll never cure her. They may be causing their own problems with mental clarity.
Now middle aged, she also suffers from depression and violent mood swings. She wakes most nights around the time the abuse would happen and has to have a stiff drink or two to get back to sleep. For her the world's a scary place. She feels that many are out to do her harm, take advantage of her or use her some way. She'll misunderstand or obsess about innocent remarks people make and imagine them to be an insult or attack of some kind. She spends a lot of time in anger at the way she feels the world mistreats her. Sometimes she'll go into rages about mistreatment, irrational jealousy or unmet expectations. Much of the time she can't hear reason.
She's often tired and would like not to get out of bed. There are hours at a time she spends crying, worrying about being loved as she ages. Much of the time though her behavior is unlovable.
I've spent many days in that place where my behavior was illogical, irrational, sometimes reprehensible. Alcohol wasn't always involved though was always there at my worst moments.
There were times when I had an intellectual awareness that I wasn't acting sanely but I couldn't make the circular obsessive thoughts stop, or change my behavior. I believe much of this type of behavior is under demonic or spiritual control and, with the help of Dr. Keyton's book, can name the specific spirits which cause these manifestations.
It just occurred to me on this edit that a new approach to healing might be developed with this information. The secular world would have no use for it but perhaps those with spiritual gifts might...Oh yeah, that's what Dr. Keyton's book is all about, the book, Stripes, Nails, Thorns and the Blood" is subtitled, "A manual for Spiritual Warfare, Healing and Deliverance."
The secular world doesn't have much success with drugs. Why isn't more spiritual healing being attempted? As I describe elsewhere, my high dollar shrink was ready to up my already high dosage of Lexapro, which I later learned was causing me mania. After 5 minutes on the internet I read that drugs are rarely successful for treating obsessive disorder. I think the Sad Lady is losing mental clarity from years of flouride based anti depressants, but I didn't know her before she'd already been on them for several years.
The Healing House folks use this approach but I couldn't find a chapter near me. Spiritually gifted people are out there but many hide their gifts because of the world's skepticism. I'd gone to church for years with my mountain mentor without knowing of his gift of tongues. It wasn't until getting to know him well in a home study that I saw his abilities.
Drugs didn't work for the obsessive behavior I had, just created another problem. My former companion has been on anti depressants for years and they may help, but they'll never cure her. They may be causing their own problems with mental clarity.
She's a Christian woman who has the gift of tongues, and God’s healing once flowed through her to help another with a physical ailment so she once experienced a gift of healing. These gifts would suggest she’s had a baptism of the spirit, but she has a sad life because of a lack of healing from her childhood wounds.
With her gifts, she obviously has the Holy Spirit and with her afflictions, she obviously has demonic and spiritual infestations. I'm editing as I go, returning to previous postings as I learn new things. I think the term spirit refers to an angel, fallen or not, vs. a demon which is an entirely different being. Demons have specific categories, appearances and functions with some overlap.
A spirit of denial is hindering the Sad Lady's recovery as well as the inability to forgive. She would like some joy in her life but it won’t seem to come. She is one of God’s misfit children. She was my companion for 3 years until I moved to GA. I tried to rationalize the relationship saying we were two messed up people keeping each other company but I knew it was wrong.
With her gifts, she obviously has the Holy Spirit and with her afflictions, she obviously has demonic and spiritual infestations. I'm editing as I go, returning to previous postings as I learn new things. I think the term spirit refers to an angel, fallen or not, vs. a demon which is an entirely different being. Demons have specific categories, appearances and functions with some overlap.
A spirit of denial is hindering the Sad Lady's recovery as well as the inability to forgive. She would like some joy in her life but it won’t seem to come. She is one of God’s misfit children. She was my companion for 3 years until I moved to GA. I tried to rationalize the relationship saying we were two messed up people keeping each other company but I knew it was wrong.
Healthy people may not be able to understand why anyone claiming to be a christian would sin in such a way but they don't understand co-dependency. It's an insecurity or fear, to the level of phobia, of being alone that will drive one into any available relationship immediately without taking the necessary time to determine compatibility.
Looking at myself, I know I have the Holy Spirit but I still have some evil spirits to finish driving out, at this writing feel I'm on the verge of a break through. Again though, don't try to tell me one can't have the Holy Spirit and a demon(s) at the same time. I don't care what Rick Warren or any other prominent pastor says about one not being able to have the Holy Spirit and a demon. Apparently these guys haven't lived with both.
I'll repeat here, the cure is easier said than done. Somehow we have to break through a major blockage or stronghold, (large collection of demons or spirits) and accept Jesus's love and healing. 2 Cor 10:4 "The weapons we fight with are not weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds." The Bible gives us some directions. Why aren't we taking them?
Looking at myself, I know I have the Holy Spirit but I still have some evil spirits to finish driving out, at this writing feel I'm on the verge of a break through. Again though, don't try to tell me one can't have the Holy Spirit and a demon(s) at the same time. I don't care what Rick Warren or any other prominent pastor says about one not being able to have the Holy Spirit and a demon. Apparently these guys haven't lived with both.
I'll repeat here, the cure is easier said than done. Somehow we have to break through a major blockage or stronghold, (large collection of demons or spirits) and accept Jesus's love and healing. 2 Cor 10:4 "The weapons we fight with are not weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds." The Bible gives us some directions. Why aren't we taking them?
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