22. SECOND RAY

     
     To tie things together, several years ago I repeatedly cried out to God from a place of deep anguish.  "Please God, if you're not powerful enough to fix me, just let me die and be done because I hate being who I am and having this behavior I can't control."  As I earlier described, while about to figuratively climb up on the cross with Jesus as atonement for some horrible behavior, God gave me a baptism of the Spirit, Jesus gave me several messages directly,  I witnessed much of the supernatural power of God from a variety of sources and although I didn't get tongues, I experienced a bit of prophetic insight and word of knowledge from God or Jesus.  Apparently the Holy Spirit does more than just relay messages, he has some discretion it would seem as described in 1 COR 11 about distribution of the greater gifts, "All these are the work of one and the same Spirit, and he distributes them to each one, just as he determines."  So tongues don't always happen with the baptism of the Spirit, something else may be given.
     John 16:13 tells us about the Holy Spirit, "But when he, the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth.  He will not speak on his own, he will speak only what he hears and he will tell you what is yet to come."  Since Jesus intercedes for us with God, the spirit must be repeating what he hears from Jesus so when we get word of knowledge or information, it must be coming from Jesus behind that multi dimensional curtain.
     I've described earlier how the greatest minds in science like Stephen Hawking seem to be bumping into God.  Stephen Hawking's modified string theory, called M theory provides a cohesive explanation for the manner in which the universe holds itself together and assumes 11 unseen dimensions.  Also as earlier stated, he's an atheist but seems to be bumping into God without knowing it.
     I became proud and grandiose with all my God encounters, fought the wrong fight, kept smoking marijuana which according to Dr. Keyton opens the door to earth spirits called divas, whatever those are and to top it off, let another man's wife move in with me.  God turned me over to satan for a 3 year trial which is now over and I'm beginning to "soar on wings like eagles" again.
     About 7 or 8 months ago I took Norman Peale's challenge and started quoting positive scripture on a daily basis.  I was in a pit, earnestly praying for death with nothingness vs. eternal hell at the time.  I doubted it would have any effect but figured I had nothing to lose.  I used the verses, "If God is for us, who can be against us, I can do all things through christ who strengthens me, and from Isaiah, Those who hope in the lord will renew their strength, they will mount up on wings and soar like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
     Within a week I received a real estate listing that ended up paying well.  I started getting good paying work, then I decided to make a move from CO to GA and made huge profits on 2 houses I owned.  I've kicked the addictions I'd let back in, am now a week without smoking, the hardest to quit, and have been going to the gym on a regular basis, a habit I'd dropped the last couple years.  I have more strength than I've ever had with some exercises, and God seems about to give me nice profits on some business deals.  I'm soaring again, just one thing missing, 3 guesses and the first 2 don't count.
     Jesus warns to fill the emptiness when the evil is kicked out lest it return and the person be worse off, and I know well how to do that.  I've felt I would make a good counselor, just as the Healing House prophets said about me.  We who've overcome problems are in the best position to relate to those still suffering, understand and help them than those who've learned in college.
     After binding the fruit of the Spirit to those who've been delivered, it should be explained that God uses time to make change happen, that Jesus can't lead us if we aren't moving, "He leads me beside the still waters," but I have to be walking for Him to do that.  Laying on my couch crying out to God for weeks didn't do me any good at all.  It should be explained that it takes about a month to form or break a good or bad habit, that after that effort it will be easy to maintain like my returning to the gym.  God provides the miracle of growth to produce a garden but we have to plant the seeds, water it and pull the weeds, nothing happens if we try to leave it all up to God.  With God's help after 7 or 8 months I'm a different man than I was but I've had to put a lot of effort into the process
     3 different prophets told me of big things in store for me and I doubted this, thinking they must tell everybody something grandiose for encouragement but it's coming to pass.  Dr. Keyton told me, "I see you've been under attack by a Jezebel spirit, dig into your Bible," "I have been," I interrupted, "No, listen to me," she said a bit harshly which I interpreted as "Shut up and listen," so I did.  "Really dig into your Bible and expect a breakthrough..."  Then there was the message from Jesus via the Spirit through the Healing House prophets from 3 plus years ago.  I've been carrying that around all this time but it hasn't made sense to me until I just re read ir..  My jaw dropped when I wrote the posting, LEVELS OF UNDERSTANDING, FIRST RAY.  It all makes sense to me now.
     "I see you on a big machine digging and digging, then you see a ray of treasure, you keep digging, uncovering dirt and rock.  I see you sitting there in the middle of the treasure."  I haven't mentioned previously in the blog, but Cindy Wilson of blogspot radio, when giving me the message of "Jesus has pulled all the lion's teeth, you'll run across the river in victory and joy," also told me I'd be getting an anointing for healing so powerful that when I walked onto a room, people would be healed.  I understand how that may happen and the ties with the other predictions.
     In Mat 18:18, Jesus tells us "Truly I tell you, whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven."  Jesus is right behind that multi dimensional curtain ready to help us if we give him the right requests.  I think it's critical though to convince the sufferer that something is actually happening.  Unbelief and doubt, both the name of dark princes of satan will keep the healing from happening.
     In another dimension, Jesus may be doing big things but they aren't felt in our dimension so although the malady, (demons or dark princes) may be cast out, I believe it's allowed right back in with doubt and unbelief.  I think it's important to prepare and convince the sufferer that something real is happening, by giving them an explanation of the fundamentals, our multi dimensional world that some are sometimes able to glance through with the gift of discerning the spirits, the science behind that.  Share with them perhaps from my experience the partner of a friend who went insane while driving evil out and the fact that this is dangerous to whoever's performing the healing.  The deliverer better have the Spirit or may experience something like the seven sons of Sceva or worse.  An explanation backed by scripture of how Jesus and the Holy Spirit operate would be helpful.  Someone who could give convincing testimony of their own experiences with the gifts would also be good.  Preparatory scripture such as "He was pierced for our transgressions...By His wounds we are healed" would be part of the prep.  I'm thinking of having people visualize themselves at the foot of the cross while describing Jesus's wounds and their purpose, such as the crown being for mental issues and each of the stripes being for certain afflictions as Dr. Keyton describes, then having Jesus drip a bit of his blood on them, perhaps delivering them real power from Jesus by this visualization.
     In my own case, I have much compassion for those suffering, had to muffle sobs recently while praying for a girl who comes up every altar call and cries.  I rushed out of church, hiding my face as i left in embarrassment as soon as the altar call was over.  She gets prayer every altar call but no help.  I believe Jesus would be happy to use me to do this girl some good.  I also have much compassion for Jesus's suffering, having had a tiny glimpse of it as an adolescent stuck on my own tree in excruciating pain.  I was only there for a few seconds until I was able to reach up and tear my T shirt, but I can feel some of Jesus's pain.  With a fear of public speaking, I don't know how effective my delivery would be to a crowd but think I could do some good with a small group.  I don't know if the technique I have visualized could be taught and delivered by anyone.  I could record a tape.
     I'm back working on this posting after a break.  I woke up in the middle of the night with a dream but something slipped away from me.  I'm still missing something small.  Dr. Keyton had a powerful anointing.  She didn't have to convince us something was happening, it just did when she prayed for healing and when she lined us up and laid hands on us and prayed.  Around a third of the women were slain in the Spirit.  Is this anointing required or can anyone do the healing with the proper delivery?  I'm on the verge of something here.  I'm getting the message from the Bible that the power from Jesus is available to all with enough faith, no special anointing required, but why does our prayer seem so ineffective?  There are a couple women at church every altar call who get prayer but they keep coming back, they aren't getting healing for whatever their issues are.
     I prayed and prayed earnestly about my alcoholism with no results.  I paid for therapy, put myself on antabuse, but nothing worked until I gave A.A. a try and put some effort into working the program.  God and I alone together couldn't get anything done.  I saw a secular program once that showed convincing evidence that if we believe strongly enough in something, it will happen and this was all about material possessions.  Do we all have a guardian angel, believer or not who will do our will with enough faith?
     Are God's hands tied?  He gave the earth to Adam and Adam turned it over to satan in the fall so satan has the deed to the earth, a right to be its ruler.  God has to keep his deals.  I'm thinking in terms of a contract with loopholes.  Can anybody with the right contractural language exploit these loopholes or must there be powerful anointing for it to happen?
     Dr. Keyton says proper use of terms such as loose and bind will lead to more effective prayer.  I recently heard the phrase, "spirit of alcoholism" and pointed out there's no such spirit.  Nor is there a spirit of drug abuse or obesity.  All three of these are manifestations of the spirit named Gluttony.  There's no spirit of depression, it's a manifestation of the spirit named Heaviness.  It seems there should be a spirit named Denial but there isn't one in Dr. Keyton's manual for spiritual warfare, healing and deliverance, I think denial comes under the spirits of deception or lying spirit.  All this information is in the Bible but I can't see how anyone could figure it out without guidance from the Holy Spirit.  Regarding the spirit of heaviness for instance, MAT 26:37 "Jesus took Peter and the 2 sons of Zebedee along with him, and he began to be sorrowful and troubled."  Certain translations use the word "heavy."
     Will we have more effect if we address these spirits by name?  For instance if we ask the spirit of alcoholism to leave, nothing happens because the spirit of gluttony wasn't addressed.  If the spirit of gluttony were addressed, would our prayer be more effective?  Can we just address "whatever evil is behind this illness or affliction" and let Jesus sort it out?  I have a bit more dirt and rock to clear away, will publish this for now and come back to it as He gives me greater revelation.