Note to reader: My chronology doesn't flow very well and at this editing, the experience is 3 1/2 years old. The exact sequence of events is a bit unclear thinking back. If this should get published, I'll clean it up but right now I want to get it online and do some stand alone stories. I haven't clearly heard from God for over 3 years and previously described why, though I felt he blessed my faithful tithing through some dark times. Here's a chronology of events over this approximate 9 month period:
I experienced the baptism of the spirit in late summer. I've read that many pastors haven't had this experience but probably need it to be well qualified to teach about God.
I received the message, "Let the word do the work" from my mentor before the legal mess happened.
The first trip to jail happened in October because of the bad dream.
I made the trip to GA in November, came across Dr. Bree Keyton then and a connected mentor of my brother who prophesied some interesting things about my future, later duplicated by a Healing House prophet, something about my involvement in a new technology. I haven't a clue what that might be about but do have a background in high tech, have been away from it for 20 years though.
The second trip to jail happened immediately after my return to CO, lasted 18 days and was triggered by an unauthorized email while on restraining order. I didn't know the email contact was forbidden. I read through the Bible twice during that stay.
The divorce was filed around Christmas.
I came across my lady mentor after that.
My first trip to the Healing House came on the advice of my lady mentor.
The third trip to jail happened in late winter or early spring because of carrying a pocket knife into a pre trial hearing.
The fourth trip to jail happened in late spring or early summer because of cutting off an ankle monitor in a state of drunken despair. (I'd been told "Jesus has pulled all the teeth from the lion, you'll run across the river with joy and victory" ) and I heard something almost identical from two different sources, neither of whom had any knowledge of my circumstances. I guess I tested God here, only one place in the Bible where we're supposed to do that, Malachi 3:10: "...Bring the full tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. TEST ME IN THIS," says the Lord Almighty. "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there
will not be room enough to store it." Having trouble with your finances? Try tithing.
Encounters with people and fun "god things" were happening throughout.
For instance right after I'd written in my blog I thought the holy spirit served an analogous function to a communications micro processor, I read in the Bible that, "He doesn't speak on His own but repeats what he hears." Right before going to a pre trial meeting where I was unexpectedly locked up for carrying a pocket knife to the hearing I'd read one of Paul's descriptions of "proclaiming the gospel in chains." I didn't have a clue why they might but went to that hearing half expecting to get locked up again and was. Before the judge when he said my writing was making a lot of people uncomfortable, I told him and the court officials, "I proclaim that Jesus Christ is the living son of God and that makes some people nervous," I had on hand cuffs and leg shackles as I did this. I was writing extensively throughout this and sometimes my fingers would do things I hadn't intended, I perfectly italicized a sentence that needed emphasis in an email and I don't know how to do that, I wrote, "the next pope may be the anti christ" meaning to say, "I wouldn't be surprised if the next pope becomes the anti christ. That may have been from satan, time will tell.
Abnormal little things like this were happening almost on a daily basis. I wrote all about it as it was happening but some incompetent computer help, the model for The Sad Lady posting, deleted the novel length blog.
Though He hasn't spoken to me directly, I'm having God encounters again and I think the purpose I've been praying for is to share my experiences and some ideas, per the message from the connected woman at church I previously described. The woman had no idea that much of the last 3 years I've been going through a serious trial and begging God for death with nothingness vs. hell or some purpose in life. That's not how we're supposed to treat trials. I need a lot of growth still.
After hearing the young woman's account of the demon through the gift of discerning the spirits, life is getting exciting again. The Holy Spirit is allowed to act at the Wiley, GA Church of God and probably in some small church near you. There must be a reason God is putting this stuff in my life. I'd previously made 50 some years without any such experiences and now they're coming to me again.
God didn't tell me but I think we're in end times and going to be seeing some tumultuous events in the near future, I know God wants to give as many people as possible the chance to come to Him. I think I'm a smart man, I have dug into my Bible and I see so much error in the messages of many pastors, even big famous ones, that I want to share the truth as I see it. I can usually stump a pastor in about 2 minutes though I'm seeking truth not trying to play games.
Throughout my bizarre experience, I was smoking marijuana and on a high dosage of Lexapro for obsessive disorder. My brother told me the whole experience was counterfeit if I’d been smoking pot throughout it. But how could it be? I didn’t imagine the message from my old mountain mentor, or the word of knowledge that came to me from my lady mentor. There was the construction worker who’d seen a demon while trying to get his companion out of wicca. There was my lady mentor describing demons and satan himself she’d witnessed. Their descriptions match some found in the Bible and are corroborated by Dr. Bree Keyton, who describes many in her writings. All these strange God things and encounters with others were happening. It wasn't all in my head.
I was on fire for Jesus and learned after the fact that I’d had the symptoms of having been baptized in the spirit. The Healing House prophets had spoken right into my life on a few occasions. This wasn’t all fake.
I’ve learned that the “open mindedness” from marijuana is dangerous. I believe we may be more likely to hear from the Holy Spirit but may just as easily let in, listen to and act on instructions from the enemy. Dr. Keyton says mind altering plants let in earth spirits called divas and that smoking marijuana is practicing witchcraft.
The Lexapro was wrong for me too. I was already somewhat manic in my zeal for Jesus, and later learned that a symptom of the Lexapro can be mania. I labeled my blog after part of my newfound drug induced disorder. I turned into this joking description of myself. I became a Raving Manic, the name of the deleted blog..
Those in the mental health profession will come up with descriptions or labels for our behavioral abnormalities but I think they’re just addressing the symptoms, not the root cause. I’ve heard the description that during trauma, especially childhood, a piece of our psyche gets broken off and stuck in a part of the brain that doesn’t register time. Then as adults, the traumatized irrational child may come out in many different forms, addictions, behaviors, etc.
Many will try to relive the experience over and over hoping for a better outcome but set themselves up for failure every time. Consider the abused woman who goes from one abusive relationship to the next, or perhaps the co dependent person who will quickly get into a bad relationship and stay in it when it’s unhealthy for him and his partner.
I can say I believe it’s a spiritual disorder without turning heads, but if I get a bit more descriptive and say I believe it’s demonic possession and that the specific demons have a certain physical appearance and hierarchy, I’m usually met with disbelief.
I have very little respect for what I saw of the secular mental health community. For a time I had health insurance that would cover it so I sought help from many sources, different levels of therapists, relaxation therapy and the like. After a high dollar psychiatrist told me that the only thing he could do for the obsessive disorder I was struggling with was to up my already high level of Lexapro, I told him "No thanks," I need some other sort of healing, I did a bit of on line research. I learned that drugs are rarely effective for this malady so decided the help must come from God. As I was later told by a court ordered doctor of psychiatry, Lexapro can cause mania and I’d certainly developed that.
I bought all of Dr. Keyton’s books. The Bible doesn’t tell us everything but God speaks to many of his people and teaches them. Around this time I asked my aging grandmother how she was able to preach church for a time with only a 6th grade education. She told me, “The Good Lord told me what to say.” I heard a man in a group say that God had told him secular music had something to do with the broken scrolls of Moses.
In one of her books, Dr. Keyton describes the Jezebel and Elijah spirits which she says are forerunners of the anti Christ. As she was describing these in a small group, I remember joking that I was getting divorced from a Jezebel spirit. She pulled two of us aside and spoke to us individually. She said something to a black pastor and later spoke to me. “I see you’ve been under attack by a Jezebel spirit, dig into your Bible,” “but I have been,” I interrupted,” “NO, I mean really dig into it and expect a breakthrough…” something about the order of Elijah.
At the time, I didn’t think she’d overheard my comment about divorcing a Jezebel spirit but she may have. Was she giving me some word of knowledge from God or just encouragement?
God seems to get a kick out of doing big things through messed up people. I'm hoping He has something in store for me.
I wasn’t stoned all the time, a bit delusional perhaps and definitely manic. I’d experienced a tiny bit of prophetic insight as previously described. This gifted woman of God seemed to be telling me I was going to be given the gift of prophesy. A Healing House prophet later told me, “I see your Bible bag glowing. You have some prophetic ability, God’s going to give you more.” I don’t know if it happened in my deleted blog or not but hasn’t happened in the 3 1/2 years since the bizarre experience, not in a clear message anyway.
At the time, I thought God was raising me up as an end times prophet, but my blog got dirty here. It had been the happy little story of how science is bumping into God but went into attack mode. I thought I was “letting the word do the work,” meaning the written work, but I now clearly see that hadn’t been the message from my mountain mentor. It is possible that by publicizing people and circumstances I may have protected myself. I'll never know for certain but think Iwas being told to let Jesus do the work.
At the time I'd gone to GA, before the 18 day jail stay, the blog wasn’t entirely anonymous, a couple personal friends had been invited to read along. The woman had recanted and tried to clear me but I still had a legal mess going on which I blamed her for.
Without mentioning my hideous behavior, which had a much more sinister appearance than hers, I joyfully attacked this woman noting all the parallels between her and the description of the Jezebel spirit. In hindsight, I was attacking another misfit child like myself. I also attacked the catholic church which she was from.
I did something of a book report from Dr. Keyton’s writings about how Catholicism has the most vestiges of the original pagan religion founded by Semiramis, wife and mother of Nimrod who had been slain by his great uncle Shem for idolatry. I believe this fact is Jewish tradition as I couldn’t find in the Bible.
They may have been Nephilim, giants who’d descended from the pairing of fallen angels with women. Genesis 6:2 “…the sons of God saw that the daughters of humans were beautiful and they married any of them they chose.”
According to Dr. Keyton who footnotes her sources, Semiramis created the first pagan religion after Nimrod’s death, making him the sun god and herself pre eiminent as the moon God. The auras behind the Madonna and child are revised depictions of herself with Nimrod.
With the confounding of language, she became known by many names, Isis, Osiris, Hera, later perhaps as Lady of the Lake . Is she now the mother of God the pope is so fond of?
Nowhere in the Bible are we told to pray to the mother of God, or that a man can forgive our sons. Lent is 40 days of mourning for Nimrod, we eat ham at Easter in revenge against the boar which killed Nimrod in Semiramis's version. Easter eggs are a tradition carried down because Semiramis claimed to have been born from an egg. They were decorated with blood from slain infants. Christmas trees were tied to this, the decorative balls were representative of Nimrod's testicles and I won't get into Halloween here.
I was way out of my league in my attack against evil and in very dangerous territory. I later learned from Dr. Keyton’s main book, Stripes, Nails, Thorns and the Blood that we better be very careful about which evil spirits to take on and how to take them on lest we be destroyed in the process by a more powerful entity that even the angels are careful in dealing with. “Be rebuked in Jesus’ name” vs. the more direct, “I rebuke you in Jesus’ name,” e.g.
To take on a fallen angel or higher level entity controlling an area or city, there’d better be a concerted prayer effort among churches with strong people in the faith leading the effort.
There I was, not knowing any better, trying to take on satan in a public forum. It didn't go well for me.
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